School is going well. Not too hard of classes, but I don't want to jinx myself so we will just leave it at that!
New Year's Resolutions:
-Right now I am sitting in a coffee shop. I didn't drive! I walked, so there is my Go Green goal. I also bought awesome razors that are recycled from old hangers. I think they are so neat! They are from "schick" in a green package. See if you can find them!
-Right now I am going to do a Bible Study on the Tower of Babel in Genesis. I want to say it is Genesis 11. This inspired me because my boyfriend and I are from different areas of the world. I am from America, he is not. He speaks a different language and it is beautiful! I am slowly picking things up, but not as fast as I would like to be.
-Being the light is just being happy. I can honestly say that the way I feel not only this year, but how I feel with starting off this semester has been easier and more joyful than ever before. I think that counts? This is the way I look at it. If I am happy, then I can give other people happiness. If I am not, I can't give people something I don't have. It's like giving them an empty "hand full."
So here is life. I have realized that I have not even said much about who I am or where I have came from. Maybe later I will dedicate a blog to that, but here are a couple of things that I will say:
1. I don't like change. I am terribly afraid of it.
2. I constantly think about my future. Everything I do is intentional for security. It's what I live for.
Now for a metaphor in my life. Mixing apples and oranges. In math class, the one rule that I was taught when moving into algebra is you can't mix apples and oranges (x and y). It doesn't work. I am learning that so many things in life are the same way. But people can try. Right now I am in that same situation. It isn't the fact that you CAN'T mix an apple and an orange, it is the fact that it is hard to. When an X and Y finish an equation and the answer isn't right, it just looks plain funny. It is the same with apples and oranges. You can't mistake one for the other, but technically you can put them in the same bowl. It is only when someone points out that it is wrong and they don't fit is when problems occur. They come from totally different trees, seeds, and benefit the body in different ways. Their purposes complete different tails in life. BUT this does not mean they are not sweet with one another. Opposites can form to do great things. Example, fruit juice. Put those two fruits together and they are totally healthy for someone. So what is stopping them from mixing and forming one juice? Life. There are things in life that if one person can't have an orange in there juice for certain reasons, they can only have apple juice (and vise versa). Even if together they taste amazing and compliment one another to perfection, there are still things in the world that separate them from being one.
So where in the world am I going with this? Basically, I am an apple with an orange mixed with perfection, but certain things in life might not like the taste. It might be confusing to read or think about, but it is what is on my mind and it is how I write at my best. Thinking and comparing. Researching and reading. Trying to find answers and defend my being. What is my answer to what is happening? I have no idea. This means that two things can potentially happen.
1. A huge change can occur in my life that I need to accept.
2. I can't see my future because anything can happen.
So why am I making myself experience the two things in life that I am the most afraid of? Because the orange in my life is worth it. Even if there is only a .1% chance that this apple and orange can make juice, I will keep trying. And if not...then there is no chance in the world that I can look back and say "I wish we tried everything."
That to me is worth it.
That might have been confusing or you might have completely understood it. Maybe it triggered something in your life that you are experiencing, or maybe it is something you will read and later remember. Regardless, that is a little bit of a window into my everyday life, and later, I will give you another glance into my glass.
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